DIGITAL PROGRAM / WHY? DOCUMENTARY DANCE PERFORMANCE
THURSDAY AUGUST 2 + FRIDAY AUGUST 3
ABRIDGED TRANSCRIPT / 简明抄本
SELECTED QUOTES: The score was created from audio interviews recorded by each dancer. We apologize for the lack of subtitles. Please see the below excerpts of text from each section for better understanding.
打开// OPENING //
::所有舞者::: : ALL DANCERS : :
'When did I realize dance was something I needed in my life?'
'When I found a could have a deeper connection with people because of it. when I found I could access philosophy and a new way of thinking of the world or looking at the world because of it.'
ALEX // UK 联合王国
I am my own worst enemy. I body does not look like a dancer's body.
I did rugby for ten years and grew up in a very masculine world.
I cannot point my toes. I have a very ugly large heel.
It's put a strain on my relationship with my parents. it used to be that every conversation I would have with her was ' When will you give this all up and get a proper job?'.
When I dance sometimes I do movements that are against what my society and culture has taught me about how to move.
It feels like ' That's not a movement I should be doing.
It is kind of a middle finger to the masculine culture I grew up in. it's kind of a rebellion.
我喜欢刺激是给我的 - 因为它是“不被允许的”。
I enjoy the thrill is gives me - because it's 'not allowed'.
SAM // FINLAND 芬兰
: : DUET WITH ALEX : :
I started dancing when I was six. my parents said when I came from Thailand, I was always dancing, always singing always moving.
I had the nickname 'Sam' in the orphanage, because the workers there really liked an American singer called 'Sam'.
I told my parents (when they took me to ballet class) I don't want to go back because there are only girls and I don't want to lift them.
当我在芬兰国家芭蕾舞团时 - 作为一名艺术家，我并不高兴。我知道纯粹的芭蕾舞不是我的一杯茶。
When I was at the Finnish National Ballet- -- as an artist I was not happy. I knew that just pure Ballet was not my cup of tea.
As a dancer, there is always a seed of 'Am I good enough?' It is our perception.
When I went to New York I couldn't speak English. I had the normal struggle to communicate. But i had dance. I realized dance is life and life is dance.
FOUR LADIES // 四个女士//
My body is not the 'right' body for dance.
When I was in Ballet school. I was in my teenage time. as a strict ballet school, they asked all the students to be skinny. They said if I want to get into a school I need to loose 10 kilo weight. which is just impossible. I can't think of anything worse, to literally torture myself.
If I didn't keep restricting my diet I would loose control of my body. I wouldn't get the compliments. I was letting myself eat one time a day.
Coming into a professional dance school, the big challenge is to compare yourself with others. many people try so hard and sacrifice so many things. i see many girls get very serious eating problems. you think to yourself "I wish i didn't gain two pounds, I wish I didn't eat dinner, I wish I had more muscle'.
它会使你的大脑变硬 - 即使你长大了，它仍会影响你。即使在生命的晚些时候它仍然会影响我。不断感受到压力，以某种方式看待并控制自己的身体。
It hard wires your brain --- even as you get older, it still affects you. even later in life it still affects me in someways. constantly feeling this pressure to look a certain way and have control over your body.
When I am not dancing or don't have dance in my life, I feel like a ship without an anchor.
When I was 19 after training for years in a Ballet school, I broke my ankle beyond repair. Almost overnight I was on crutches, I couldn't even walk.
I was four or five years older than all my class mates.
I remember crying myself to sleep all night. I was devastated that this thing was gone, and there was no one to talk to about it.
Aging and injury is the most hard thing I have ever experienced.
WEN TING // CHINA 中国
You feel an emotion coming from deep inside. it's almost spiritual.
We learned from a video, I guess that is how every dancer started.
I could turn 64 circles by training 4 months. I trained myself so damn hard to get into that school.
One word I can use to describe the feeling of dancing onstage is 'self-indulgent'.
Dance for me is like daily food and drink.
The first time I saw contemporary dance, I saw freedom.
SUZIE / / UK 联合王国
I think it is really important to keep checking in with this art form and language we were trained in.
Even though I was training ten years ago, I still want to do those things I used to be able to do.
It's that language that your body has been taught in. I really enjoy still taking class. it is a language and a way of expression.
When I stop doing it, I really miss it.
It puts the muscle memory in your body, so you have this ghost memory of doing it.
Coming back to dance I had this mental struggle of knowing I wouldn't be able to do what I used to do.
It was scary coming back not knowing if I was even able to do it.
It's somewhere I can loose myself and never get bored.
It's like my version of meditation.
PIAN PIAN // CHINA 中国
There's this piece I remember vividly. when I was seven or eight, I saw 'Carmen'. even twenty years later I remember it. I think that was the point I realized it's the thing I really like.
All the muscle memory from ballet and different styles started to come back after my injury recovered. and at that's the point i think my body and mind really worked together to create this pure muscle work of my own body.
I think the reason i put myself as a dancer is i think that is my life literally.
I am dancing all the time.
I cannot not dance.
Even when I just speak to you, the breathe I take. My bod just naturally moved with the flow.
Life is short, I will just do whatever I want before one day I might just disappear.
ANNELIESE // USA
On stage surrounding by all the lights, you can kind of hide your regular day to day persona. it's kind of like a veil.
For a long time I really felt like the pursuit of this was something I would have to do myself.
There wasn't much support.
When I couldn't do dance I lost my identity.
It's like an itch. it's something you always think about and feel like you always have to get back to.
When I'm dancing, I feel like I am the only person left in the world. I feel like space and time is suspended.
你创造了这个特殊的世界 - 另类的现实，观众不一定期待，但你可以在一起生活。
You create this special world - alternate reality, that the audience is not necessarily expecting, but you get to live in it together for a moment.
For a lot of people it is a way out.
It's not something that you can buy or have or hold or keep. You have to just experience it, and then let it go.
When you really use your body to that limit, it's like your spirit goes through a bath.
It's this idea of escapism, for a moment being suspended in a different world.
It becomes a saturating experience.
ALL DANCERS // 所有舞者
The reason I dance is because dance can release the real monsters n me. It also makes me extremely happy.
Sometimes it feels like my body is full of some type of golden liquid.
It's a nice feeling of release.
I dance because I have to.
It makes me feel free from all the problems I have.
I grit my teeth and gern.
When I am on stage, it seems like my own appearance is so strong.
It's like a virus that is spreading, or like a fire.
I can't really describe it, but it's this feeling like I'm here right in the moment. I have all these structures to use to say what I need to say. It is like this feeling needs to go out.
Because there is nothing more fun that I could possibly be doing at this moment.
Why do I dance? Because I cannot not dance.